I took it in my mind

I took it in my mind to read something I wrote about this shit

You know you’re born and you have no idea what you’re getting into
And then you grow up a little and think maybe you’re starting to get a handle on it
But nope you’re wrong.

And then life really kicks you in the gut and you think this is it.
this is really it.
This is reality and it sucks and it’s depressing and there is no bottom

but you’re still wrong and you’ll never figure it out because it’s too big and too obvious and it’s right next to you.

It’s all around you. Life is all around you, love is all around you.

but death is all around you too.
it’s the other side of life
the other half.
the opposite which defines the other.
It’s the shadow that defines the light, and makes the thing apparent to the human mind.

And the knowledge of death has a generative power, it’s mysterious, eternal and universal.
It makes you cherish the brief life you do have, the love we share, how rare and precious it all is.

These are the kind of things Rob and I used to talk about.
But nevermind any of that.

what I want to say is that I always felt very close to you Rob, from the time you were a little kid playing with your sisters and your cousins.

you couldn’t have been happier. I know because I have been there myself, and you brought me back, you brought me there again, we were all there together.

And over the years as you grew up, we recognized each other.

you were one of us.

we were mostly separated in space and time. but I can say that I felt as close to you as I have ever felt to anyone.

I still do feel close to you, Rob. I loved you and I love you still.

but the worst part is that I know you loved me too and now that love has passed from the world and I am the lesser for it as are we all.

But the world is a better place because you were in it Rob, even if only for a little while.

Love you forever!