Category: essays

  • Is Saul Among the Prophets?

    Is Saul among the prophets?” This is a supposed adage or snippet of a popular verse that occurs twice in 1 Samuel. First when Saul is anointed king, “God gave him another heart.” And among other things, he fell to the ground, raving and acting like mad.
    And again in 1 Samuel 19:24, wherein the people remark ironically on their king who, when the spirit of God came upon him, behaved oddly. Apparently, this happened often, and the people were surprised and astonished to find their king tearing his clothes, and speaking in tongues.
    There is so much on which to ponder in this passage. First, to see a roving band of mad prophets was not in itself that odd. They went around begging, and the people tolerated them, sustained them, and either listened to or ignored their ravings, as seemed fitting. What was odd in this case was to see their king among them. So on the face of it, “Is Saul among the prophets” probably just means “has the king gone crazy again?”
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  • Alan Watts Blues

    Today is the seventh of July, 2011.
    Last night I got to a point where I was pretty miserable and feeling sorry for myself, and thought “I’m going to call in sick today.” I even pecked out a message on my blackberry from the dark side of the moon:
    “I feel the need to tell you that today would have been Anita’s and my 27th wedding anniversary. Sick doesn’t even begin to describe the way I feel.”
    Today would have been our anniversary. But its not, because the truth is we’re not even married any more. We both took the oath: “’til death do us part.” Even then, far in the back of my mind, I kind of knew or feared this day would come, who knew when?
    But the idea of a thing and the thing itself are not the same. (more…)

  • alt.jesus

    Being an alternative perspective on the life and death of Jesus of Nazareth.
    A long time ago, I read a book. I spent a little while this afternoon trying to recollect, and I think it was The Gospel of the Essenes by Edmond Szekely, that my roommate Chris had loaned me. But I’m not sure.
    I do remember the author struck me as a little kooky.
    But in any case, the topic was an alternative view of the life of Jesus, as informed by a newly translated gospel discovered at Qumran among the Dead Sea Scrolls in the late forties, but mysteriously kept secret by the official translators for reasons that are still not clear.
    In the intervening thirty or so years, I’ve had the opportunity to read a lot more on this topic from a variety of sources. I especially loved Gibbon’s treatment of early Christianity for its refreshing skepticism and dry humor, as well as Will Durant’s deep and erudite series The Story of Civilization, and to the current subject, the volume Caesar and Christ. Of course I’ve read a lot more of the New Testament and the Torah, and as they’ve trickled out, I’ve read as many of the Qumran Scroll translations as I can, as well as those found separately, but by coincidence almost simultaneously, at Nag Hammadi, including the famous and formerly banned Gospel of Thomas — at least one of very books that had been enshrouded in such mystery back in the day.
    The Gospel of Thomas is really just a collection of some of the sayings of Jesus, not tied together into any narrative, or any discernible order. That format itself gives it a kind of purity, and the document’s antiquity (Thomas probably preceeds the previously oldest known gospel by sixty years or more), gives it additional authenticity, at least to some.
    Many of the sayings will be familiar to us all. Many scholars now think the canonical Gospel of Mark was at least in part based on something like Thomas, the hypothesized source called “Q”, and that Matthew and Luke were in turn based on Mark. But the unfamiliar quotes attributed to the teacher are most interesting for their peculiar character and subject. I recommend the interested reader research this subject on your own. Its a mind bender, that’s for sure. Start with a clear distinction between the two revolutionary finds, coincidentally both made in the late forties — that at Nag Hammadi in 1945, and the more famous Dead Sea Scrolls at Qumran in 1947.
    So, all that said, the following is not an attempt at a representation of anyone’s views, including my own. Its just a weird idea I had one time, perhaps inspired by a book like Szekely’s, but you have to admit, it kind of makes sense, when you think about it.
    The first thing to know is that then, as now, Palestine was a contentious place. It was not considered particularly valuable real estate by the Romans, except maybe for its location. The locals were always quarreling and revolting. There had been continuous wars, civil and otherwise, and rebellions, since before Jesus’ birth, and more after his death, ultimately resulting in, among other things, the destruction of the temple.
    As you might imagine, this was a catastrophic event and had many long-lasting practical as well as profound psychological consequences that reverberate in the world today (see the Roman-Jewish wars and Jewish cultural nationalism).
    Another thing to know is that then as now, there were several strands of sometimes mutually hostile Jewish civilization and culture active simultaneously. As always, most folks were just trying to get by. It was hard times, and Roman rule chafed as you might imagine. Everyone hated the tax collector, who is viewed as the worst kind of traitor. But some folks decided it was best to just play along. These are maybe best represented by Herod Antipas (there are three different Herods in here, Herod the Great, appointed “King of the Jews” by the Roman senate after the Roman conquest of Syria and Judea, served essentially as a procurator of the province under the Roman general Pompey. The other two, his sons, Herod Archelaus and Herod Antipas, tetrarchs or nominal kings of Judea and Galilee, respectively, but in fact more or less figurehead puppets of the Romans).
    The Herods were Jews, but relatively secular, especially compared to some we will meet in a moment. They were versed in the scriptures, aware of the traditions and so on, and sensitive at a surface level at least, in a political way, to the mores and taboos of their people.
    It was Herod the Great who rebuilt the second temple, but he is known in the Christian tradition mainly through his part in the story of the Magi and the massacre of the innocents [Matthew 2:3], oft retold at Christmastime. Most modern historians do not regard this as a historical event. Like many other stories in the New Testament, it is clearly a construction designed to reinforce a particular point of view by echoing stories of the prophets, like those from the Egyptian captivity, the plagues and the passover, etc.
    But it is his son, Herod Antipas, by all accounts a relatively weak character, highly constrained by his situation vis-a-vis the Romans, who crosses paths with Jesus at the peak of his mission, or rather, unwittingly initiates it, through his involvement in the death of John the Baptist. Many of Jesus’ early followers had been followers of John, as Jesus himself was. And John’s death created a leadership vacuum that thrust Jesus into the fore, it would seem against his wishes, or at least prematurely.
    It is actually John the Baptist who frames many of these issues and is really a more important figure than most modern readers can possibly ascertain from reading canonical Gospels alone.
    John forms the bridge for us to another group, or actually set of groups, one of which we now know more about than any other, that is the Essenes. These were radical traditionalists, who so hated the Romans and more or less despised their secular counterparts, that they dropped out and hid in caves in the desert, living under a strict traditional interpretation of the scriptures, similar to a monsatic lifestyle. They longed for an end to Roman oppression and a return to the golden age, perhaps the era of king David, or more likely the theocracy we might find from the time of the Book of Judges, or the more recent Hasmonean period, for example.
    John disappeared for long periods into the wilderness. It was remarkable how he could survive alone out there. But as we now know, he was not alone.
    Remember, it was the Sicarii, a Zealot sect similar to the Essenes, who overcame a Roman garrison at Masada, a former redoubt of Herod the great, and held it against the Romans during one of the many uprisings of the era. In the end, they committed mass suicide rather than surrender, as we have seen many radical sects do in the succeeding millennia, up to recent times.
    The third strand of Jewish culture at the time is what we today call “Hellenized Jews.” Such was Saul of Tarsus, a former persecutor of Christians, who changed his name to the more Greek sounding Paul, had never met Jesus, and had never even been to Jerusalem until after Jesus’ death.
    It is known that Paul had a Greco-Roman grammatical education, he spoke and wrote Greek (poorly, according to Gibbon), and he used a Greek translation of the Jewish scriptures. There is no evidence that he knew either Hebrew or Aramaic, although the doctrinally correct position is that he did. Durant sometimes confutes tradition with fact and this is one of the areas where he, like many another good Christian, errs. Paul was, like his father, a Roman citizen — a fact he used at more than one critical juncture to escape legal trouble. He identifies himself as having been a Pharisee, which was more of a political party than anything else. In particular, the Pharisees favored hellenization and stood in opposition to traditionalists such as the Essenes, Sicarii and Zealots.
    As Gibbon points out with great substantiation, much of what we now consider Christian teaching has absolutely no basis in anything Jesus or any of his apostles ever said or any other Jewish tradition for that matter, but seems to have been invented by Paul and his followers. Thus Gibbon says, what we today call Christianity should more properly be called Paulism. If you study traditional Christian dogma closely, Paul the so-called “apostle” stands not coequal with Moses, the prophets, or even Jesus. He supersedes them all. Where there is conflict, Paul’s words carry the greatest weight.
    Paul’s interpretation of Jesus’ teaching may not have been invented in a complete vacuum, though. As Frazier and others have pointed out, there is much in Paul’s interpretation of the passion, death and resurrection, the tradition of the Eucharist, and much else, that seems to have its origins not in Jewish tradition, or Jesus’ teachings, but rather in Greek mystery traditions, themselves based independently on Egyptian mysteries such as that surrounding Osiris.
    In deprecation of the Law of Moses in favor of the new covenant, as defined by himself, in declaring the supremacy of faith over deeds, in the definition of the sole standard for salvation as faith specifically in Jesus, Paul’s interpretation of Jesus’ message has dominated and to a large extent defined Christian dogma. Paul said “Christ is the end of the law, that every one who has faith may be justified.” [Romans 10:4]. But Jesus said, “Think not that I have come to abolish the law and the prophets; I have come not to abolish them but to fulfill them. ” [Matthew 5:17]
    Good food for thought, but all that is preface.
    The thesis of this proposed alternative view of the life of Jesus is that intentionally or not, Jesus’ teaching was viewed by the Roman occupiers and many secular and Hellenized Jews in as much a political context as a spiritual one.
    There is evidence now that Jesus had some exposure to the ideas of the Essenes, and a number of the very earliest gospel texts surviving today were discovered in caves at Qumran, written, read and preserved by revolutionaries against the Roman occupation.
    Imagine an undercurrent in the events of Jesus’ life and teaching informed by the presence of one or more secret societies of radical fundamentalist Jews.
    Imagine the concern the authorities would have as gatherings of thousands flocked to hear the words of a rabbi, a natural and charismatic leader, knowing that uprisings were continuously breaking out, leading to a full blown revolution at any time. In fact, as we now know, one was imminent.
    The arrest and trial are all performed under Roman auspices, and the mode of execution especially speaks to this thesis. Stoning was the traditional punishment for blasphemy, and some other religious crimes, and the Romans clearly had no problem with that, as Jesus himself saved a woman from death by stoning. By contrast crucifixion was a terrorizing mode of punishment used throughout the empire by the military, reserved particularly for the worst criminals — and revolutionaries. The most compelling argument of all is right there in the gospel. The crime for which the criminal is to be put to death was traditionally inscribed over the head of the criminal. Jesus’ crime: INRI. The Latin abbreviation meaning: IESVS NAZARENVS REX IVDAEORVM (Jesus of Nazareth, King of the Jews).
    This form of execution was a terror and a direct challenge to any who thought they could rise up against the Roman occupation. The story on the face of it is plain: Jesus was put to death by the Romans for inflaming nationalist aspirations, inciting sedition and possibly revolution. Perhaps even Joseph of Arimithea, the mysterious wealthy character who “loaned” Jesus the use of his tomb was, like others, secretly a follower of Jesus, and like him was involved with such an underground movement, though he kept his involvement secret in order to maintain his income and a front for the organization. (Another possibility is that Joseph was a relatively well to do uncle, who had pity and affection for his unfortunate nephew.) Maybe the whole tomb episode was a ruse, and that members of the underground rolled away the stone in the night, rescuing the gravely wounded Jesus from the cave, spiriting him away to some secret place such as Qumran, to be nursed back to health or to die with as much dignity as possible. Maybe he even lost consciousness up there on the cross, and for all the world seemed dead. For a small bribe, he could easily have been pulled down, near death, and a burial could even have taken place. It was ancient times, after all, and being dead was kind of a gray area. Maybe he did survive for a little while, allowing visits from a few trusted souls, maybe as much as forty days or so. Its an expression, after all, meaning “a while.”
    If you go back and read the story of the preparations for the last supper in the light of such an interpretation, some of the characteristics of an underground organization kind of stand out: “When you go into the city, a man will meet you carrying a jar of water. Follow him into the house that he enters and say to the master of the house, ‘The teacher says to you, “Where is the guest room where I may eat the Passover with my disciples?”‘ He will show you a large upper room that is furnished. Make the preparations there.” [Luke 22:10]
    And it was only a hundred years later, after the failure of three separate uprisings, the destruction of the temple, and in the context of a campaign to convert large numbers of gentiles of all races across the Roman empire, and after the break between Paul and his followers and the traditionalists, including all the actual apostles like Peter who continued to evangelize after Jesus’ death, but who maintained the supremacy of the Mosaic law, when the story as we now have it was revised to shift the blame to the Jewish religious leaders of the time. You can hear this in third person phrasing throughout the gospel, such as John 7:15, “The Jews were amazed and said, ‘How does he know scripture without having studied?’” It just doesn’t sound like a phrasing that a Jewish person himself would use, does it?
    This editing was intended to redefine Jesus’ teachings to try to make sense of his death in the context of three failed revolutions and ultimate destruction of the temple, in order to remove barriers to evangelizing among gentiles, and to justify the centralization of authority and purging of dissent characteristic of what we now call the established church.

  • Topics in History

    I was driving in the car with my daughter and got to talking about another graduate degree, and she said I should think about history. She said her history professor reminded her of me or vice versa, and she said I would be really good at it, because I was so well read.
    I told her I knew a number of people with undergaduate degrees in the liberal arts, like history, who had gone on to earn graduate degrees in a technical field like computer science, for practical reasons, mainly, but I knew of no one who had done it the other way.
    But after a while, I started to think it over, and one thought that came to mind was, “why bother with a graduate degree in history?” Why not just write a history?
    The answer came that with say a Phd in history, I could then conceivably teach at a university, which might be a nice way to wind down into a second career, different from the first, and maybe an interesting thing in itself.
    But the options are not mutually exclusive. So I thought I would consider writing some history myself, just to kick things off. What would I write about?
    First off, my touch stone on the subject is a quote from Barbara Tuchman, probably my favorite modern historian: “all history is biography”
    History is not about timelines or abstract concepts. It’s about people.
    My second principle is perhaps a commonplace, but to me was a personal discovery. In high school, I spent some time in detention, for reasons that don’t matter. There I met a fellow who became my good friend, and we had many engaging conversations. one time he said “it’s interesting how the atom, with a nucleus and electrons, looks so much like the solar system, with the sun and the planets and I said, “and it makes no sense that we study the atom in chemistry class, and maybe we study the solar system in physics class, or whatever, and we study the war which drove so much of the research into the atom maybe in history class, and it’s all really part of the same thing.”
    And he said something like “yeah, man.”
    And many years later, reading biographies of Einstein and Bohr and Oppenheimer, and those cats, I learned that it’s no accident that the so called “Bohr model” for the atom looks like the solar system, it was quite conscious, and controversial. It’s a simplistic conception that’s helpful only up to a point, and they knew it at the time. And it’s interesting that closer examination seems to very disturbingly indicate that people find whatever they are looking for in the universe, that our will somehow exerts influence over the quantum field, or some crazy stuff like that. Go on and read some of the modern writings in quantum field theory, if you don’t believe me, it will blow your mind.
    And that brings me to the history and philosophy of science, or “natural philosophy” as they used to call it, and people like James Burke, who did a couple of TV series and books called “Connections” and also “The Day the Universe Changed”, as well as the work of the philosopher Karl Popper, which has profoundly influenced my view of the world.
    And I would love to drill down into how and why these two men were so influential, not just to me, but to so many people, whether they know it or not — one broadly and the other deeply, but I must rush on to list so many other human beings whose contributions are all interconnected in a vast, hyper dimensional web of thought and perception.
    So many of our modern western commonplaces of thought, even assumptions about the world, were revolutionary insights derived from Locke, and before him, Hobbes, and arguments against Roman Catholic interpretations of Christianity, itself so deeply fundamental to western thought that it is just given, like air, like gravity. But Christianity is itself based on, or perhaps embedded in another cultural context, Judaism, or more specifically a form and view of Judaism as practiced by Hellenized Jews such as Paul the Apostle, and so we find themes of Greek philosophy and mysticism cropping up in Christian theology, fusing with the Judaic themes in exactly the same way that the colonies of the new world became an amalgamation of various European cultures, translated into a new context. So we can think of these Judaic memes being transplantated from the levant into (or perhaps invading) the fertile soil of the European mind. And to complicate matters further, the rich and complex web of Judaic thought before and since the time of Christ has had a kind of parallel development, profoundly influencing and subtly influenced by the development of Christianity. So nothing ever stands alone in this world, everything is influenced by everything else to one degree or another.
    So, for example, I could talk about Spinoza and Newton, or the book of Ecclesiastes and Nietzsche, or for that matter, Christ and Osiris and Buddha. And that bring to mind Frazer’s “The Golden Bough”, and all that, and that’s a whole rabbit hole if ever there was one. And Frazer’s brilliant and original study of comparative folklore, magic and religion brings to mind Gibbon’s “Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire”, and Gibbon’s uniquely witty, skeptical and insightful perspective on the development of Christianity based on an objective study of original sources. If you haven’t read these things, you should stop reading these words, right now, and go off and read them, Frazer and Gibbon in their entirety, and I guarantee, you’ll come back a different person, if you come back at all.
    But history involves not only the history of what we call “The West”, but so much more that is neglected by or even unknown to so many of us, that it is disturbingly sad to the point of shocking. I could talk about the vast tracts of time encompassed by the Chinese empires of the Ming, the Han and the Chin and other dynasties and the Ch’un Ch’iu periods, reminiscent of monarchical western Europe, fertile and innovative and war prone, the era of the great general Sun Tzu, and his classic “The Art of War“. Or the parallels of Feudal Japan to Medieval Europe, or the mysterious millennia encompassed by the Egyptian dynasties of the Upper and Lower Kingdoms, or the vast literature and scripture of what we call India, they themselves call Bharat, and its great tales, comparable to and in some ways exceeding those of Homer or Shakespeare, gathered into the Mahabharata, which includes as only one of its numerous volumes the Bhagavad-Gita. But the “Great Bharata” is itself embedded in a vast and ancient scriptural tradition including the Vedas and the Upanishads, all of which are worlds unto themselves.
    But history involves not only the history of thought, but so much of human history involves conflict: and military history is a noble and worthy specialty in its own right. So many innovations were forced by war: so many examples are present in our minds from the modern era, but as just one example from history, consider that Galileo’s telescope was once thought so strategically valuable in the military context that it’s invention was held a state secret. Think about it.
    Let us ponder the hundreds or thousands of wars men have wrought upon one another, the countless untold battles of the nations of pre-Columbian America, or the tribes of the central Asian steppes, of the Mongol hordes, of the Celts, the Norse, tales told in the Icelandic sagas, or now forgotton tales of the Germanic peoples of Gaul, of the Aryans in India, each embodying values and world views so very different from one another and our own, that we are shocked to learn how despite their differences in time and place, that all people are the same: we all experience love, and jealosy and pride. Even the Chinese, somehow lived parallel separate histories just the same in their own world (中, the ideogram for China, is a rectangle representing the four corners of the world, with a vertical stroke through its center, indicating the center or axis of the world, that is, “Chin”).
    Or consider another path, so to speak, through the history of the traditional martial arts, wushu (武術). For example, the development of Te (手 “open-hand or weaponless martial arts”) in secret on Okinawa while under occupation by Japan.  Open hand, because Okinawans were forbidden from carrying weapons by the occupying Japanese.  According to legend Te was derived from Kung-Fu (功夫 “skill learned through great effort”), itself brought to Okinawa from China by itinerant Buddhist monks. And consider the relationship of Kung-Fu to Buddhism, itself an export from India to China, and transformed as it spread through southeast Asia and Japan to Korea and beyond. And then how the Japanese codified and renamed it Kara Te Do (空手 “the way of the open hand”), as we now know it.    Or comparing and contrasting all the many different schools of martial arts, Tae Kwon Do (태권도 “the way of the fist and foot”), and Ju Do (柔道, “the gentle way”), and Ju Jutsu (柔術 “the flexible way”), and so on, and how they are all rooted in Yoga (control), and how isn’t it interesting that there is no martial art particular to India?
    Or again, the rich, manifold, and to most westerners of European descent, the mysterious, almost alien world of Islam, yet in so many ways it’s a reflection, or alternative distillation of influences, and not at all unrelated mixture of Judaic, North African, and Western Asian thought and culture.
    And again back to the crossroads of history, culture, philosophy, business and science, and the fascinating story of Leonardo di Pisa, known as Fibonacci, how he brought the Hindu-Arabic counting system from North Africa to Europe. And ask yourself, how profound an influence has zero-based arithmetic had on the development of western science and technology, and how has it changed the world? And consider the transit of the concept of zero from the Ashrams of India through the Madrasahs of Baghdad to the school in Algeria where Leonardo learned of it, and brought it back to Medieval Italy and put it to great practical use in his father’s trade business, and its history from thence throughout Europe.
    And maybe you can begin to see what I mean when I say everything is connected.
    Or travel back with me to Elea, a Greek colony in Italy, and to the early fifth century before Christ, and contemplate the origins of western philosophy Or consider the origins of the Ottoman Empire in the relics of the Caliphate, and modern Turkey and its unique relationship to Islam, and the peculiar origin of the phrase “Young Turks” and the involvement of the leaders of Young Turk party in the first world war, and the calamitous outcome thereof, and the influences on western Asia and the Arab world of the treaty of Versailles, the reverberations of which we are still dealing with today. That is a topic for an entire book in itself.
    Oh, I could go on and on, drilling ever deeper, and roving ever more broadly, but to what end? Is there anybody out there?

  • Richard Dawkins vs. God

    Richard Dawkins has a new book out, apparently mostly focused on debunking some of these myths we have about God. I’m sorry, but what a tragic waste of time and talent.
    First of all, I should say that Dawkins is for me himself kind of a god. Can I say that?
    His book, “The Selfish Gene” is on the short list of books I have read that have completely transformed my world view. Oh, I don’t know how short the list is, but I do know its kind of random, which in itself is probably revealing. Apropos nothing, a few other entries on it include an obscure set of reprints from Scientific American, called “Cosmology + 1”, Nietzsche’s “Twilight of the Idols”, Gibbon’s “Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire”, Frazier’s “The Golden Bough”, Heinrich Zimmer’s “Philosophies of India”, an abridged version of the Mahabharata given to me by an old friend from Kashmir, and Carroll Quigley’s “Tragedy and Hope.” And of course, old Number One, and in particular, The Psalms and The Book of Job. Yeah. That’s good stuff. Go off and read those, then get back to me, and we’ll talk.
    What these books have in common is a kind of mind boggling disorientation. I mean they bring you to contemplate what might otherwise be commonplaces in a way that is so far from conventional wisdom that maybe even if you thought you understood their subjects before having read them, no matter what else you think afterward, you wind up with a new perspective in spite of yourself.
    What really knocked me out when I read The Selfish Gene was the sense of the enormity of the time over which evolution has to work, and how fruitless it is to try to apply “common sense” to phenomena so far out of any context with which we have had any meaningful experience, that it sends the mind reeling.
    In “The Blind Watchmaker” Dawkins addresses this point directly, in that one argument postulated against Darwinian evolution, even in its modern modified form, is that it defies reason to think that complex entities like ourselves “merely appeared” on the face of the earth, like a pocket watch spontaneously coming into existence on the Scottish moor.
    It seems implausible to our tiny minds to imagine such a thing happening, yet our best evidence and most careful study lead us to believe something quite like that. Except there is nothing ‘spontaneous’ about it. Some of us now think we have evolved from blobs of complex molecules having certain properties of replication over the course of billions of years. It is so hard to fathom the length of time over which this evolution has occurred that scientists studying these phenomena, being human themselves, have to spend years training their minds in order to explain the facts before them in terms which they themselves can’t possibly comprehend. Think about it.
    Another wonderful book: “Adaptation in Natural and Artificial Systems” by John Holland approaches adaptation from a computational point of view. Its a real mind bender, check it out. In it he shows how powerful evolutionary problem solving can be, whatever you want to believe.
    What I mean is that this is complex stuff — that even our best minds are only beginning to understand. If we have given up on our priests to give us all the answers let us not merely point the fickle finger of fate at our scientists. There are no answers. At least that we are capable of comprehending. There are only hypotheses, undoubtedly vast oversimplifications that either predict events or fail to do so. That is all.
    A similar or maybe even more fundamentally disorienting experience must occur in the realms of astronomy and astrophysics, or so-called high-energy physics wherein we contemplate distances so great, or so small, and observed peculiarities of space and time so bizarre and alien to our everyday experience that we are barely capable of grasping them, much less finding them consistent with “common sense,” whatever that means.
    So, the first thing to grasp is that no one really understands any of this. Scientists study phenomena, postulate hypotheses explaining the phenomena and these theories succeed or fail more or less as they are applied to and remain consistent with additional observations. Scientists tell us what they think, and we either trust them or we don’t. That is it. We all have this desire for definiteness. We like things to be simple. Does God exist or not? Some say yes, some say no. But the truth is, no one knows. Why can’t we just leave it at that?
    What strikes me as maybe ironic is that scientists, or what may more generally be called “rationalists,” otherwise so skeptical about everything, sometimes seem to lack the ability to be skeptical, or shall we say modest, with respect to themselves. Questions about the existence of God and other imponderables like, Do we have souls? Is there life after death? Which, first of all, are entirely different questions from one another, get all muddled up together in this garbage heap of “irrationality” and absent any evidence, meaning any instrumentation with which to measure such phenomena, they are outside the realm of science. Pending the discovery or invention of such mechanisms, why can’t we just be content with that, and remain silent on the subject, then?
    I’m afraid the true answer is that we have such divergent world views competing in the realm of policy these days, that we dare not ignore these differences of opinion for fear that we might underestimate our ability to kill one another over some such arcana.
    Maybe there is something out there, some consciousness, maybe even with some of the attributes we conceive of as applying to God, omnipresence with respect to our dimensionality, omniscience with respect to our puny intelligence, something which remains hidden, and we have so far been unable to detect, like the cosmic background radiation. We can hypothesize it based on nothing more than intuition. Is that such a crime? Don’t confuse faith with fact, but it would seem prudent to approach the universe with a profound humility, just on general principles.
    I think of Job and others in the Bible, wise men, better than you and me, when they find themselves before God, they tremble in fear, cover their eyes, and fall to their knees.
    We wouldn’t expect a modern man to do anything resembling that, would we? I imagine a modern man standing there saying something like, “Now see here, God, I have a couple of questions for you.” Does that sound like a sensible attitude one should have toward the master of the universe? I’m not talking about whatever dysfunctional relationship you had with your father, with authority in general, with the man in the pulpit, or the Pope or the Archbishop of Canterbury. I’m not saying ‘pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.’ What I am saying is look at the universe around you. Really look at it, and ask yourself, who are you to judge that which is beyond your comprehension? Where were you when its foundations were laid? Where were you when God said to the seas ‘thou shalt go thus far and no further’?
    So often, that’s what I hear when people like this joker John Humphrys on BBC4 trying to be profound ask questions that sound to me like nothing more than “riddle me this, batman.” Wake up, dude. The universe doesn’t owe us shit. And in particular, it doesn’t owe us an explanation. There is pain and tragedy all around you. That’s right. And it doesn’t begin and end with the sick innocent child that you claim somehow disproves the existence of God, nor does it begin and end with the tragic sadness of grief, or the sins we commit on one another. Its positively childish to put that on one plane, and forget about your scrambled eggs for breakfast, or factory farms, or a million other things you may or may not be aware of. For one example, consider the ongoing struggle for life between yourself, which you barely understand, and the microbacteria and viruses you are literally fighting with for life every moment of every day, as you sleep and wake. Wake up, you dumbass!
    What I mean is that on the one hand, its amazing that we creatures, crawling around in the mud on the surface of this rock spinning in space, are able even to contemplate the vast universe, or that part of it which we can observe, and consider the beginnings and maybe endings of time, but on the other hand, even with all that, we have the arrogance to think we have the capability to understand more of it than we proportionately should expect to be able to.
    That is as our lifespan relates to all of time, and as our travels from birth to death relate to all of space, why should not our intellectual achievement thus relate to reality?
    That is not to diminish the accomplishments of human minds greater than our own, quite on the contrary. But where’s the humility, I ask you?
    Ponder with me, if you will, the life of a man, perhaps a great man in a distant land, perhaps centuries or even millennia ago. A man who achieved great and wonderful things, who was a hero to his people, and who was known through the generations. Consider such a man to have lived in a now lost civilization, even the name of which we do not know, for example the Indus civilization, or maybe some even more obscure society of which we have no record at all.
    Now consider that time is so long, we all will share that man’s fate, no matter what we do. There will come a day when there is not a human being on the face of the earth, perhaps no life on earth at all, perhaps no humans anywhere. There will come a time when the sun will emit its matter into the void of space and finally go dark. Maybe the entire universe will collapse, and there will come an end to time and space.
    In that context, don’t all your exertions for achievement, for love, wealth, or fame or whatever it is you may choose to be chasing, seem pointless?
    How can they not?
    And that is where God comes in. God, or rather our belief in Him makes us like Daffy Duck in my favorite cartoon, “Duck Amuck.” If you’ve never seen it, look it up.
    At one point, Daffy finds himself out of the animated frame, right off the cellulose, or at least off of an image of the cellulose on which he was being drawn, and talks directly to the audience. Its at once very deep and very funny, which I think is a characteristic of many profound experiences. Its where we find ourselves, outside one box, inside another, whether we perceive it or not. Theology, philosophy and physics are all absurd, and at their best somehow approach comedy, when you think about it. But deep down we all know comedy and sex are supreme over thought. And if you have ever been lucky enough to be able to laugh with your lover after sex, I don’t have to tell you, that’s deep.
    You may say its like a dream, “and in that sleep, … what dreams may come…?” And we all step out of the “real” world into our own dream worlds, and some of us return with true insight, and some return with disturbing nightmares, and some confuse the dream for the waking existence, or vice versa, and are capable of the most shocking barbarity. Or is it the so-called civilized, rational man who is laboring under an illusion? Having evolved over the course of millions of years, surviving in large part due to genetic mechanisms we share with fish, fowl, bugs and beasts — is not the lower creature the greater part of us than this thin veneer of civilization or of rationality?
    When we look at our DNA we find we share 99% of it with the apes, perhaps nearly as much of it with dogs and so on. Are we really so different from them?
    And look at us, even so called civilized beings, constantly at war with one another, we survive by literally ripping the flesh off of other beings, which from a statistical analysis of our genetic material are largely indistinguishable from us.
    And even putting this aside, as Nietzsche says, “in times of peace, a warlike people sets upon itself.” So if we abstained from all flesh, we would still need to consume plants, which are no less alive, and even if we sat quietly, fasting, meditating, our minds yet would fill with thoughts of aggression, and even if we mastered our desire for importance and power, our jealousies and hurts, would we not yet be guilty of a form of aggression, one part of ourselves over another part?
    God, or rather our faith in God, and in a sense, God within us, allows us to step outside of all this noise, to transcend and perceive something greater, beyond the mean struggle for existence, beyond categories and names for things, beyond our ability to express. Our faith ennobles us, and as Martin Luther King said, our forgiveness for the wrongs done to us ironically frees us from the chains that bind us to the enemy. That’s a really big idea.
    Clearly, the universe produced us, as Alan Watts said, in exactly the same way that an apple tree produces an apple. Isn’t it wonderful? Or like Einstein said, to some people, nothing is a miracle. To others, everything is.
    This is a deep and profound truth, that once you can grasp it you will find encompasses and does not contradict these other truths — that even if from an egotistical point of view in the end it may all be fruitless, like the vanity of the man from a lost civilization — we can achieve progress through skeptical and rational analysis, and meanwhile doing our daily work for its own sake, putting food on the table and love in the bed, has value and is a worthwhile exercise of our energies. And if we have any juice left over at the end of the day, would it be such a waste of time to put a message in a bottle, so to speak, and let a prayer pass our lips, just in case the master of the universe might hear us, even if all we have to say is ‘thanks’, or ‘please take care of this soul now lost to us’, or whatever.
    After all, isn’t it just “pity that’s the heart of love”, as Joyce said, and similarly isn’t it just hope that’s the heart of prayer?
    And so, when confronted by the great deep, is it really so foolish and futile for us to cling to hope, the more desperate we are, the more tightly? And like a man lost at sea holding on to a bit of flotsam, it may just turn out that this irrational faith of ours will in the end save us.

  • the nature of reality

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    I want to talk about the nature of reality and our place in it.
    Its a difficult question because its ultimately unresolvable.
    Its very difficult for a thing to contemplate itself.
    We are part of reality.
    We can’t get outside of it.
    We can’t operate on it.
    We are in it.
    And in a way its both the most important question, and an unimportant question.
    That’s the real essence of what I want to talk about:
    things can both be and not be
    things are beyond pairs of opposites
    ultimate reality lies beyond even concepts.
    And there’s an ineffable quality
    That we all experience
    About which its impossible to talk
    And its this that’s at the root of all religions and philosophies —
    This parsing out of the experience,
    That the immediate experience of the world…
    People have struggled through the ages to try to resolve their perception of the world around them with their inner sense of a different experience of the world, … of some other world.
    And this conflict is the essential human condition.
    How we come to survive whatever level of
    Resolution we come to between these different experiences
    Defines who we are — who we think we are and who we actually are.
    Now if you break things into pairs of opposites,
    You naturally try to talk about the inner and the outer as being separate and distinct.
    Right?
    But the truth is always that pairs of opposites are aspects of some other thing that we might not have direct experience with.
    I’ll show you what I mean:
    We have day and night, right?
    But the sun is always shining as far as we know, at least for the next couple of billion years.
    So the day and night are our perceptions of the sun’s continuous shining limited by our position on the surface of the planet with respect to the constancy of the sun.
    In the same way, our interior experience and our exterior experience are different manifestations of a more universal reality.
    This is a very important concept.
    Again, any time I give it a name, I part it, I take something and put it apart from other things that have different names or no names.
    And that’s what makes it impossible to talk about.
    Lao Tzu says, “the Tao which can be spoken of is not the universal Tao.”
    This is because speech breaks things down into first of all a linear pattern of thought, and individual concepts forming the words of the sentence.
    And as soon as you do that you move away from the universality of the Tao.
    So in a way its futile to even try to talk about this thing that I’m trying to talk about or at least refer to.
    And this dilemma has preoccupied Buddhist monks and Eastern philosophers for millennia.
    The way they try to teach it is usually experientially.
    They can’t actually teach you, but they can set up an environment appropriate to your state of being, that will help induce the realization within you.
    Its very inefficient and time consuming.
    Its also indefinite.
    You can’t really tell whether someone’s got it or not.
    They say you can tell, but you can’t really.
    Its like that Steven Wright joke, “everything in my apartment has been replaced by an exact replica.”
    Its a question if something is an exact replica of something else can you tell them apart?
    Well, if its a perfect enough replica…
    Its not like enlightened people have little radar that they can find each other out.
    Sometimes you can kind of tell based on a person’s comfortableness within the world I guess,
    Or you know, constant comfort and discomfort, feeling everything at the same time.
    Its very confusing.
    Because on the one hand, you have this realization of universality.
    The everything,
    The everything, the everywhere, the every-when.
    And beyond.
    Beyond even our concept of dimension.
    Not higher dimensions, no dimension, all dimensions, beyond dimensionality.
    and I ..or you know its really just a perception of it.
    In the sense of like a cave man looking at the sun: “Ugh. Sun.”
    It’s there. There’s something up there…out there..
    without understanding what it is.
    We don’t understand what it is. Its a — we really have no idea what’s going on — kind of thing.
    We pretend that we do, [because] you know “smart” people have convinced us they know what’s going on.
    That doesn’t mean we do.
    That doesn’t even mean they do.
    You know, in some sense they might know more than us.
    You know, one individual knows more than another individual.
    [its just that they claim they do and we trust them.]
    [maybe they do and maybe they don’t]
    But you know, were all just worms crawling around on this apple.
    Human beings are so arrogant!
    Of course, you know, look around yourself.
    And as far as we can tell, we’re the smartest thing in the universe, … really.
    I mean, this planet, any other planet, any other time — to the extent that we know.
    Which is exactly my point — the extent that we know is not very much.
    We think we know more than we do.
    [I guess its a question of in the absence of evidence to the contrary, do you just assume nothing, or do you keep an open mind, or do you populate the inky blackness with creatures of your imaginings?]
    And on this planet?
    Well maybe, I don’t know.
    Yeah, probably.
    But there’s other species, I mean elephants and whales,
    I mean, that appear to be smarter than we ever thought they were
    [especially when we were busy harvesting them]
    [not to mention chimpanzees and apes and so on]
    Who the hell knows?
    Maybe its staring us right in the face
    Maybe rocks are intelligent in a way we’re so dumb we cant even comprehend.
    Who the hell knows?
    [or some kind of energy being yet to be discovered living on the surface of the sun, or whatever…]
    So there’s another aspect of religion, or mysticism, or whatever you want to call it — is its a way to protect ourselves.
    Its a… the world is a terrifying place, filled with vast sorts of dangers
    In ancient times, you could imagine a primitive man in the wilderness,
    Wild beasts ready to tear him limb from limb at the slightest opportunity.
    Everything’s hungry.
    Everything’s eating on you —
    Bugs,
    Diseases,
    Microscopic things, you don’t even have a concept of,
    That will make you sick,
    Affect you in different ways,
    And kill you.
    […]
    And so we put up these structures of thought,
    I wont call them “myths” necessarily, or fables,
    Because many of the things we think of as myths today
    Were conceived of differently in their time and their cultural context.
    And my observation any way is that there is some form of truth at the bottom of practically every one.
    Everything, all the time.
    Both true and false.
    And neither.
    That’s what I’m talking about.
    And so similarly to the primitive wilderness, the perception of infinite universality is terrifying.
    It gives you vertigo,
    If it doesn’t drive you mad.
    And like the sun you can’t stare at it for too long.
    We’re not built for it.
    And this is something that you find in the ancient writings, like for example in the old testament that we lack today.
    If God showed himself to Moses or Elija
    Remember these were the leaders of their time, very important men.
    They fell to their knees, quaking in terror.
    Our modern conception is that if God came,
    We’d have some serious questions for Him.
    ..you know the arrogance of modern man..
    We’d want to understand and analyze.
    But part of that is the whole concept of Judeo-Christianity or Islam is monarchical, right?
    Its the social organization that they knew at the time.
    You had a king.
    He had total power.
    And a person came with the appropriate reverence, or else.
    And God is the king of the world, so there you have it.
    And there’s a truth to that.
    There’s an appropriate reverence for the infinite,
    That we should have,
    And very often we lack.
    Its this kind of arrogance that I despise in atheists or even let’s say the “secular agnostic,”
    Who has some concept of spirituality and at least is you know, give him credit at least he’s honest enough to say “I don’t know.”
    Our modern conception is the world just doesn’t care. If you want answers, don’t ask to be told, just seek them out yourself. In a way its harder and even more lonely and frightening.
    But the flip side of that is that very often we see a lack of fear and reverent respect.
    And when you think about pollution and global warming, or the nuclear bomb or biological weapons, its not hard to imagine that we will someday pay a terrible price for that arrogance.

    that’s enough for now.


    “Sun is Shining” by DJ Krush & Toshinori Kondo
  • the unit of time

    The unit of time we call seconds relate, I believe, to the beat of a man’s heart when at rest.
    Minutes and hours are constructed in a way that relates seconds to days using a numerlogical system based on the number 360, the approximate number of days in a year.
    The numbers 12 and 360 were sacred to the ancient mesopotamians, as were the shapes circle, square and triangle. This mystical numerology and geometry crops up often in ancient religion and science, from the Pythagoreans to the Mayans. These numbers are special because they relate the number of lunar cycles in a year (about 12) to the number of diurnal cycles in a year (about 360). They also allow a circle (representing either the heavens or the earth) to be divided into symmetrical units we now know as degrees, minutes and seconds. The square represents the cardinal directions, and the triangle generally represents relationships, such as that between heaven, earth, and man.
    Originally, there were 12 hours in a “day”, defined as the duration between sunrise and sunset. Think of a sundial, rather than a mechanical clock. So such “hours” relate to days as months relate to years. The arc of the sundial would be divided into 12 equal segments, although the duration of each “hour” would vary in absolute terms by the time of year, depending on how far from the equator the observer was.
    The brilliant men of the ancient Levant, encompassing a fertile crescent-shaped region from Lebanon, through Turkey, Kurdistan and Iraq, of the Sumerian, Akkadian, Babylonian and Assyrian civilizations happened to be living relatively near the equator, and so this seasonal effect would be negligible within the limits of their ability to measure.
    Other brilliant men living in other parts of the world in other times, such as the Chinese and the Mayans appear to have independently developed some sophisticated systems of time measurement with comparable predictive ability, but it was the system of the Mesopotamians that formed the basis of our modern calendar and time system, which is now accepted without reservation throughout the world. If only we could establish such accord in other realms, such as language, religion, and dvd formats.
    So.
    The partitioning of time into years is in relation to earth’s revolution around the sun;
    Into months, the moon’s revolution around the earth;
    Into days, the earth’s rotation on its own axis.
    But weeks?
    The ancient Babylonians marked time primarily by the lunar calendar, and divided the roughly 28 day lunar cycle into four quarters, basically by the quarter phases of the moon, with various rituals associated with the respective days of each phase. Eventually, this seven day cycle lost its connection to the lunar calendar, but certain rituals remained associated with the seven day cycle.
    Centuries later, the Greeks followed this model, naming the days for the sun, the moon and the five known planets, themselves named for the gods Hermes, Aphrodite, Ares, Zeus and Cronus. The Romans followed the greeks, substituting gods from the their own pantheon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn. The germanic tribes, influenced by roman civilization, substituted gods from their own pantheon for the romans: Tiu, Woden, Thor, Freya. Thus in English we have Sun’s day, Moon’s day, Tiu’s day, Woden’s day, Thor’s day, Freya’s day, and only Saturn’s day remains from the Roman pantheon in the English names for days.
    The Judaic calendar probably derives, either directly or indirectly from the Babylonian, substituting traditional Jewish rituals associated with the Genesis story of creation, and Judaic numerology, in which the number seven was considered sacred, for on the seventh day, God rested.
    The seventh day is called the ‘sabbat’ meaning to stop, to pause in one’s work (rendered in English ‘sabbath’). We are taught to stop for a reason. To reflect, and ponder God’s work. To rest from our own work, and to give thanks. Something for all of us moderns to consider. Rest and contemplate and honor the sabbath. It is a commandment from your Lord.
    The division of time into weeks is thus unique, and different from all other conventional time divisions we use.
    According to the Mosaic law, there is in addition to a sabbath day, a sabbath year. In the ancient tradition, fields were to go fallow for a year, anyone could eat the fruit that grew untended, slaves were to be set free, and all debts and grudges were to be forgiven.
    One was to have been fortunate and prudent enough to allow for this, or one might rely on the support of one’s family and community otherwise.
    For some of us lucky moderns, the sabbath year lives on in the so-called ‘sabbatical.’ I think there is a lot of wisdom in this. If you can’t take a whole year off, at least pull back a little bit, reflect, contemplate the mystery of the cosmos, be grateful and honor those around you, your friends, family and even your servants. And take care to forgive any grudges you may be holding. You will be glad you did.
    On the seventh cycle of sabbath years, in other words, every fifty years, there was the Jubilee. It is named for the Jubal horn, the special ram’s horn, which was blown in celebration. In contrast to the sabbath, which occurred on different cycles for different individuals, the Jubilee is like a sabbath year observed by the whole community. In Jubilee years, God-fearing elders would compete with each other in acts of generosity, showing their gratitude for God’s benevolence by freeing all their slaves, and forgiving all debts, and sharing all their possessions with one another.
    Something to think about.